Endings are never easy... however many times it may happen... when there is no emotional connection it might seem easier, but saying good-bye is always difficult... knowing you might never meet again pinches even if it is just for a brief period of time... wishing you'd given people more chances... or even one chance... wishing you hadn't been the uptight bitch you portrayed yourself as outside the dorm... or wishing, just plain wishing you'd been yourself throughout... not a depressed misanthropist... it hurts so much knowing you'll never have a "chaddi-buddy", i.e, a close friend that you've known since you were a child... moving around sucks... and yet its the only thing that i'm good at.... going away is supposed to be easy, isn't it?... then why isn't it?
why do we slug our way through life... force ourselves to believe we're not as good as everyone else... or believe that we're better than everyone else... why can't we just be the plain-janes or simple-sallys?? pollyanna that annoying... okAy yes she was... but Jeez, do we have to hold it against her.... we should strive to be more optimisic... pessimism is so over-rated.... :P
No comments:
Post a Comment