The incessant ramblings of a troubled mind that is fumbling in vain to hold onto the sanity that is threatening to break away… As I reach the end of the road and look back I realize how I’ve been fucked over by people I was meant to look up to… While I try hard to build up the broken pieces of my life around me… the cuts across my wrist represent the pain that had no face… the blood that’s on the bathroom floor around me is contaminated with the poison I injected into myself so that I could survive in this cruel world that is so filled with hate… the love inside me breaks me… over and over I fall… because I can love in the darkness that haunts me… in the echoing silence I hear my soul reverberating… the beating of my heart slowing down to a sluggish pace as I slump down on the cold hard tiles that remind me of my life… I feel clean as the blood spills out of my vein making rosy patterns in the water as it swivels its way towards the drain… the pain is numbing to a dull throb that seems to mask the underlying emotional turmoil that I am too adamant to give up on…
As I lie on the floor, my tear and kohl stained face hard and cold as ice… I refuse to give in to the pain… I fight myself as I fight everyone around me… I refuse to give up and yet inevitably that is all I do...
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